New Adventures


Sometimes I wonder if I am the evil one.  When he tells people the story of the divorce, I wonder if I am the evil one.

I wonder if he still reads this.

Things have been going okay.  I dated this one man in September.  It started out lovely and ended horribly.  In a way, that was good.  It wouldn’t have done me any favors to fall in love with someone who was completely and utterly wrong for me.

After that short affair, I was reminded of this quote, from “Sense & Sensibility.”


I am like Marianne.  I wish for things, which turns to hope, which turns to expectations.  I must remind myself to not let myself get carried away, because then I will be disappointed.  I am always disappointed.  I have high hopes, high expectations for situations, for relationships, and then I am disappointed when things go wrong.  Perhaps I should lower my expectations.

There is plenty to keep me occupied.  Halloween is quickly – oh GOSH so quickly approaching.  Sewing has consumed me.  Afterwards come the holidays.  This season – October through January 1 – is my favorite time of the year.  There are parties and gatherings to keep me busy.  I can shop my heart out.  I’m in charge of my family Christmas this year, so that will keep me busy during December.

My work shuts down over Christmas and New Year’s, although I’m in a department that technically still works over the holidays.  There are four holidays, four weekend days, and four “working” days over the shutdown.  Usually I continue to work through the holidays, but this year, I’m going to take a vacation.  I’m going back to Dallas to see my dearest friend.  I wonder if it snows in Dallas?


I’m flying out there the day after Christmas, returning New Year’s Eve.  I’ll spend that evening with my sister and brother-in-law, like I did last year.  We will watch the parade on New Year’s Day.

I’m not sure if it’s better to watch the parade on television or in person.  On the one hand, it’s so much fun to camp out overnight.  But there’s something to be said for celebrating New Year’s Eve in a pretty dress, with friends.  The best of both worlds would be to buy reserved seating, so that you could show up at 7 AM and definitely have a spot.  Maybe someday.

So those are the adventures waiting for me over the next few months.

This is a good end to a good year.



One thought on “New Adventures

  1. I actually came here because of the quote, that I found by doing a google image search on a random number (I do that sometimes when I’m bored at work) But I just had to react 🙂
    I can really relate. Although I have overcome the urge to ‘find a bad guy’ in my situation (divorce). The (my) reality is: The combination was not going to happen. I’ve since been finding out more about my own path and trying to walk it. I guess I noticed I wasn’t investing myself enough in my own life, how could I be investing in other’s? Do you really believe you can lower your expectations? I think they are part of who you are now (that doesn’t mean you need them all right now). Anyway, good luck on your adventure!

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